Wednesday 15th December 2010
Yesterday, a mixture of nightshift, exhaustion and things going wrong began to take its toll, and all my demons started to rise. I sat staring into my own darkness and wondered if I was ready for this trip.
I woke up tonight feeling as down after spending the entire night dreaming with bad dreams. So I went to the monkey deck. The clouds have descended on us and we are moving with the swell giving an eerie sensation fo staying still, totally engulfed in a damp grey blanket. The surreal nature of standing there woke me up, battered down my inner grey as life once again flowed through my freezing veins.
Tomorrow we hit that storm. I'm looking forward to it, I know it sounds weird but I'm welcoming getting truly thrown around. I feel we should hit rough weather before the absolute calm of the ice. Such contrasts are part of what makes this area of our earth so truly beautiful.
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